Taking a Break

Today was my post-op appointment with Dr. Le. I was kinda nervous going in. Not because I thought he would tell me anything I didn't know, but because I had made a decision and was afraid that he would make me feel guilty for my choices. I know that it is the doctor's job to do whatever you are paying him to do. For me, I have paid him good money (not that it's about the money) to help us in our struggle to conceive. And it has been his job to guide us, try different drugs and procedures to help us. But today I had to tell him I was changing the game plan. Because after all it is our choice. So after Dr. Le told me about the more aggressive drugs he wanted to try including three injections to stimulate my ovaries, I told him we were in the process of adopting three kids and wanted to take a break from the drugs and other procedures until that was all settled. And he totally understood and supported our decision. And this is why each of the exam rooms in his offices contain award after award that he has received over the years. Because he is compassionate and this is not just his job. Many women come to him when they are in a very fragile place in their lives. A very emotional journey. And he provides hope and comfort and support. He asked that we keep in touch with him as far as what is going on with us during this break and when we are ready to come back (if we need to come back) we can call him back and we will pick up right where we left off. I cannot express enough how good he made me feel for our decision. Before today, I would have said he was very caring and good at his job, but now I say I love him and would refer him to anyone who was looking for a fertility specialist. And I start to see all the pieces of my life that have been missing or lost come together. I am starting to see the picture that God has been creating for us and let me tell you, it is amazing!! On Sunday, one of our friends from church prayed for us. For guidance and peace and wisdom. Against fear of rejection and failure. It was good and exactly what we needed. Speaking of coming together, I have made a list of all the things I need (or want) to get done before the kids come here, and it is pretty massive. One day at a time, one item off the list at a time. Tonight after work, I got most of school supply shopping done. I have some things they didn't have at Staples, so I'll try to go to Walmart pretty early on Saturday and get the rest done hopefully. And on Saturday, the kids bedrooms are being painted by our friend Jason. A while back he told us he felt like God wanted him to paint the kids rooms when we got our kids and knew what we wanted. We are so grateful for the help, and quite honestly, no matter how much I wanted the rooms to be painted, I sure didn't want to paint them myself, so I am thrilled to get some help. We are buying another bed and bedding to match the one here as well as a 5 drawer chest for the girls room. Obviously, we are buying a lot more at some point, but right now I am focusing on the basics. First things first. Get the rooms painted and closets cleaned out. Oh my, the list is so long. But we have time and God will help me to prioritize what needs to be done now and what can wait. Most people get 9 months to plan for kids rooms and such. We are getting something like 6-8 weeks. Lovely! But it'll all get done. It just may not be as perfect as I would want, but that's okay. They are kids and as long as we can love them, they'll be fine. So many people have asked what we need and what sizes the kids wear, so I'll answer here by saying that we don't know what we need yet or their sizes. We are more than happy to accept help, but I really don't want to become the collector of all things people are trying to get rid of that our kids may or may not need. When I find out more, I'll try to put some sort of list together, so if you want to help you can. Trust me when I say, please don't feel obligated, but since many have asked, I thought I should address it here.